it is not the same

Friday, July 30, 2004

urinetown

going out tonite. urinetown. for cheap.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

blue whales...and worms

blue whales!!!! after 30 yrs! i know this isn't a great picture, but it's the only one i can offer...for now...and probably permanently. but forget about that, just think, blue whales!!!!

blue whale
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somewhat in relation is the bone-eating worms that eats whale bones. the male worm lives inside the female. and the green stuff is the bacteria. the white stuff is the ovaries. ew. check out the picture.

ew....worms
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(Please refer to "Rare blue whales spotted in Alaska" and "The bizarre case of bone-eating worms")

| lily* || 0 || 2:13 p.m. |

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

fool

i just realized how much of a fool i sound like in my previous post. yawn. who cares? as much as a fool i may sound like, i am not going to retract it.

so blah to you!

| lily* || 0 || 1:21 a.m. |

msn he/she/it

stupid guy on msn. stupid mingqing_yang@hotmail.com. please do e-mail he/she/it if you would like it. i hate it when people add people that they don't know on msn. worse, add people they do know and refuse to tell them. i'm not sure if mingqing_yang@hotmail.com is of the latter. mingqing_yang@hotmail.com kept on typing in chinese. and i have enough trouble speaking chinese, so what makes you think that i'm going to be able to read chinese? fortunately, there was the creation of the internet and on that internet, there came a translator. and with this magical device, i translated everything that this he/she/it said. he/she/it thought he/she/it had the advantage over me. well, too bad for him. i may not know a lot of chinese, but i know some. the tables turned. i used the magical translator device and swore at he/she/it in proper chinese slang. ha! take that you evil he/she/it!

and then mingqing_yang@hotmail.com got scared and ran away.
true story.

and thank you to annie for clarifying that mingqing_yang@hotmail.com is a guy. although i still refer to he/she/it as a he/she/it...hehehe. but annie is a true sweetheart. true story there too.

i am annoyed and evil*.

* Disclaimer: I am not liable for anything that I say in this post. It is merely a mood. For now. As for Sadia, you figure out what the disclaimer means.

| lily* || 0 || 1:07 a.m. |

make-up

ever seen that episode of malcolm in the middle where lois has to wear loads of make-up because of a secret shopper evaluation? if you haven't, go watch it. if you don't know what i'm talking about, screw you.

well, today, i felt like that. although i did put on some liner and some lip gloss--and that was it--i felt like lois. burdened by make-up. i hate putting on make-up. sure it "beautfies" a person, but how far can it go? must it be generally females that wear make-up? (this excludes all celebrities and those in the theatrics) why can't guys wear make-up? there are those who do need some.

but let us push this to the next step forward. not even a step, one-eighth of a step. forget make-up. let people be as they are. after all, it's generally known: "never judge a book by its cover". why not practice such remarks that people keep on repeating. sometimes it may have some value to it.

or perhaps i am merely trying to sound moral. some of you that know me would probably think that i'm just trying to justify my position for forgoing make-up everyday because i don't believe i should waste those five minutes of sleep for make-up. or another five to not look like a frinkin' student. newsflash: i am a student. so i won't get married. yawn. the guy's not worth my time for just looking at me because i have twenty pounds of make-up. or even two pounds. people should just be as they are--which is rare and sometimes doens't even encompass me.

admittedly, to avoid a double-standard, it is nice to have both looks and smarts. but natural appeal and intelligence is the best. (yes, the search is hard) sometimes people have to work a little to find that right combination.

i'm not saying that everyone should just ban make-up. (not that anyone would listen anyways.) i'm just thinking people should wear a little less make-up. relax a little. be lazy. on your off days, just go with the flow. it will feel better. and if you regret it later, it's too late because it's done. but the momentum will feel good as you do it.

you'll see what i mean.

| lily* || 1 || 12:51 a.m. |

Sunday, July 25, 2004

glasses

feeling exhausted. walked all day. with no water or food. don't have much to write. aside to say that i finally got some new glasses. prescription. five hundred dollars down the drain. fuji wuji. hakim's a total rip-off. well, at least the one downtown nearby eaton centre. stupid bitch sales lady told me that my lenses would cost FOUR HUNDRED DOLLARS. ugly bitch. i hope she fucking rots for trying to fucking rip me off. i've never paid that much for my lenses and i've paid for my glasses for years since i was....i don't remember when. went to other places and checked out. each place was about the same for my prescription, but definately NOT four hundred dollars. bitch. i may look naive and dumb--and i can be at times--but i'm definately a big enough cheapskate to know that i'm being ripped off. i hope she trips over her own feet and falls onto the cement face first, chipping her buck teeth. or perhaps stewie will have a better idea.

stewie finishing off evil hakim bitch for lily
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| lily* || 1 || 10:23 p.m. |

Saturday, July 24, 2004

work

work was boring as usual. but it was an "unnoticeable" boring. well, it probably was because i kept myself busy....cleaning. usually i hate cleaning, but today i actually somewhat enjoyed myself. the boredom must have got to my head. especially to think that i actually liked cleaning. or maybe it was because i was amused at myself for stealing some yellow gloves my hands won't get ruined this time around.

you see, my boss is an idiot of a medium sort (not big enough to be in the bigger leagues, but not small enough to flick away). he forgets paychecks. keeps employees after hours for extra whatever 10-20 minutes--with no pay. makes employees wait if he's late--let's be kind--by 20 minutes. worse, he also bitches when others are a few minutes late. and from then on, forever hassle the workers for being late twice ONLY. jackass.

since i got off-topic a little, we shall return to the yellow gloves that i stole at work. just so i do the work that i am supposed to do without ruining my hands. after all, i am dumping my bare hands into a bucket of water with detergent and vim. it's a sad situation when you have to steal to do your work. and it's an especially sad and pathetic situation when your quite affluent boss refuses to spare a few pair of gloves to his employees. cheap bastard.

now some of you may question his "affluency". i would like to say trust me, but the image in my head is when someone says "trust me", it's just another way to say "fuck you". or perhaps it's just me. so, instead, i will provide whatever knowledge that i know. for starters, his daughters--who are just as idiotic if not more--are enrolled in private schools. well, his 2 daughters. the oldest one is in u of t, just wandering around, whining about something that she doesn't quite have yet. yawn. the 2 older daughters each of a car. the wife (also of equal idiocy) has a van. my boss just bought a new jeep. admittedly, the middle daughter has an older car but nevertheless, she has a car. but now, i think you get the point. worse, my boss remains king jackass and likes to brag about his jackass "treasures' to me. well, i suppose it's not so bad for me considering i work the least hours. i just pity the other employees.

note: my boss shall remain my boss. no names are mentioned...well, obviously, because i need it to pay for the lovely tuition fees that Ontario offers.

| lily* || 0 || 7:38 p.m. |

empty post

can't think of anything to write. except for one thing.

sadia is the devil. (it is self-sustained) oh and give up the wall!

| lily* || 0 || 12:01 p.m. |

Friday, July 23, 2004

china

i will post an actual blog tonite....just later. also, i will update my daily quote link...just later.

so for now, i will leave with this article on china, which i received as a forward from amy, for you to read. you decide.

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Comrades,
Here is an interesting article in preparation for next week's fundraiser on China. The New International Socialism Journal #106 is also leading with an article on China.

Is China Next?

by Chalmers Johnson

http://www.jpri.org

So you've just been to see Michael Moore's "Fahrenheit 9/11." And you've read that Bush has the lowest poll numbers since his administration took office. Our proconsul in Iraq just sneaked out to the airport and boarded an Air Force jet for home. And the Supreme Court woke up long enough to slap down Bush and Ashcroft on their claims that the Bill of Rights doesn't apply to them. Maybe you're thinking that the system works, and the separation of powers, the Constitution, the electoral system, etc., will save the American Republic from its war lovers. Well, think again.

Quietly and with minimal reportage in the American press, the U.S. Navy has just announced that in mid-July through August it will hold "Operation Summer Pulse 04" in waters off the China coast near Taiwan. It will be the first time in U.S. naval history that seven of our twelve carrier strike groups (CSGs) will deploy in one place at the same time. It is hard to imagine what an armada this will be (or what it will cost). At a minimum, a single CSG includes the aircraft carrier itself (usually with nine to ten squadrons of about 70 aircraft), a guided-missile cruiser, two guided missile destroyers, an attack submarine, and a combination ammunition, oiler, and supply ship.
Normally the United States uses only one or at the most two CSG's to show the flag in a troubled spot. In a combat situation it deploys three or four, as it did for both the first and second wars with Iraq. But seven in one place is unheard of. It's the peacetime equivalent of the Normandy landings.

Which only goes to show that our foreign policy is increasingly made by the Pentagon. Of all the money the United States spends on foreign affairs, 93 % is controlled by the Department of Defense and only 7 % by the State Department. The various regional commanders, CENTCOM for the Middle East, PACOM for the Pacific, SOUTHCOM for Latin America, and so forth, have ambassadors reporting to them. Even the current secretary of state for only the third time in our history is a military officer -- former chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff Colin Powell (his two predecessors were George C. Marshall and Al Haig).

Operation Summer Pulse 04 was almost surely dreamed up at the Pearl harbor headquarters of PACOM commander Adm. Thomas B. Fargo and then rubber stamped in the Pentagon. It is doubtful that Congress was even consulted. The seven aircraft carriers that are assembling to impress the Chinese are the Norfolk-based USS George Washington, USS Harry S. Truman, and the USS Enterprise, the San Diego-based USS John C. Stennis, the Japan-based USS Kittyhawk, the Florida-based USS John F. Kennedy, and the soon-to-be San Diego-based USS Ronald Reagan, now on its maiden voyage to the Pacific. According to Chinese reports, Taiwanese ships will join their American colleagues in this modern rerun of nineteenth-century gunboat diplomacy.

Needless to say, the Chinese are not amused. They say that they are currently capable of taking on one or two CSGs, but that combat with seven would overwhelm them. The result is that they have embarked on a crash project to meet and defeat seven U.S. carrier strike groups within a decade. There's every chance they will succeed. China is easily the fastest growing big economy on earth, with a growth rate of 9.1% last year. On June 28, the BBC reported that China had overtaken the United >States as the world's biggest recipient of foreign direct investment. China attracted $53 billion worth of new factories in 2003, whereas the U.S. took in only $40 billion, India $4 billion, and Russia a measly $1 billion.

Instead of trying to intimidate China with our navy, we should be trying to adjust to China's commitment to peaceful commerce. If left alone by American militarists, China will almost surely, over time, become a democracy on the same pattern as that of South Korea and Taiwan (both of which had U.S.-sponsored military dictatorships until the late 1980s). Our military fanatics and neo-conservative ideologues know this and appear to be trying to precipitate a confrontation with China. If they are successful, the results are all too predictable: we will halt China's march away from communism and militarize its leadership, bankrupt ourselves, split Japan over whether to renew aggression against China, and lose the war -- just as we lost our war against Vietnam and are in the process of losing the one in Iraq. We will also earn the lasting enmity of the oldest and most populous nation on earth.

Chalmers Johnson's latest book is The Sorrows of Empire: Militarism, Secrecy, and the End of the Republic (2004).

References:

Ching Cheong, "US Plans Huge Show of Force in Pacific," Straits Times (Singapore), June 30, 2004.

"Carrier Strike Groups Feel the Pulse," Navy Newsstand, June 30, 2004.

"Seven Carrier Strike Groups Underway for Exercise 'Summer Pulse 04'"

"Carrier Strike Grouyp (CSG)"

BBC News, "China Tops US in Investment Table," June 28, 2004

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globalnet@mindspring.com
http://www.space4peace.org

| lily* || 0 || 9:24 p.m. |

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

"pant's on fire" bush

work was crappy as usual. but i got some spare time and through this spare time, my day has been brightened by one, if not multiple, highlights. this highlight of my day is, of course, concerning bush.

to save the best for last, i will mention the other highlights first such as evidence of corporate abuse from KFC ("Video shows chicken abuse at KFC supplier"). However, one should note that the spokesperson for KFC, Bonnie Warschauer, had stated that "KFC will not buy chickens from the plant unless it can be assured the abuses have stopped". Thus, it's only from the plant as opposed to the company. Moreover, KFC is not even bothering to an investigation with the actual company.

On another note, I would like to say that there is hope after all in this world. (Gen) Pinochet's finances are being probed! And with this evidence,--I suppose I have to say possible evidence--Pinochet can be charged and prosecuted for the many atrocities he has caused. Worse, his coup in 1973 has been named as "one of the bloodiest in 20th-century Latin America". On a brighter note, however, Pinochet's immunity has been lifted since May. (Please refer to "Court lifts Pinochet's immunity", "Chile opens probe into Pinochet finances".)

Finally, the highlights of highlights. Ben Cohen, co-founder of Ben and Jerry's, has created a Bush effigy tour around the US. To quote Cohen,

In a polite society, you don't go up to a person and look at them in the face and say, 'You're a liar.' We think it's a lot more dignified and there's a lot more decorum to say, 'Excuse me sir, your pants are getting a little warm, don't you think?'

"Pants on Fire" Bush with Ben Cohen. (CBC News 2004)
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(Please refer to "'Pants on fire' Bush effigy tours the U.S.".)

| lily* || 1 || 8:12 p.m. |

new tagboard (again)

got rid of my old tagboard...made my blog load too slowly. i think it was the ads. thus, it has been replaced. this one has no ads. thank god.

now i need to get to work.

| lily* || 0 || 8:12 a.m. |

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

tagboard

i now have a new tagboard! hurray for me! the only thing that annoys me is the small ads that chatterbox (who has donated my new tagboard) adds right beneath themselves. but i'll live. worse comes to worse, i can switch. but i don't think we need to be so drastic.

| lily* || 0 || 7:48 p.m. |

stupidity

please refer to: "Drinking and shotguns in your pants don't mix"

who shoots themselves? this is, of course excusing, suicidal maniacs.

i only wish they had a picture.

| lily* || 0 || 12:23 a.m. |

Monday, July 19, 2004

new blog

allo!

this is my new blog spot. this new blog home appears to be a lot more feminine. it's nice, i suppose. pretty. kinda a little too girly for my taste. maybe it's the blond girl in the image. i'm not blond nor am i white. maybe that's it. or maybe it's my mood. i'll probably change my mind later again. besides, i spent some time on it and i don't want to give it up quite yet.

welcome me.

| lily* || 0 || 7:07 p.m. |

Friday, July 16, 2004

personal info

today i saw an old friend. i keep on bumping into people lately. i mean it both figuratively and literally. old friends just keep on popping up everywhere i go and nearly every day now. just today, i saw matt on the way home. and now i kinda wish i didn't see him. well, i can't say wish but it's the only word that i can think of right now--so it will have to do. i didn't want him to know where i lived (we were on the same bus).

i'm somewhat touchy on such matters. like giving away my phone number, where i live--hell, even my name. when i meet some people that i've just recently known, i give them a fake name (and hope i never see them again in some cases). i hate it when people give away my phone number or even msn without my permission. it happens anyways. as much as i hate it, i generally let it go. in fact, i wouldn't even say "generally". i always do. i don't care how "close" you are to me. ("close" is in quotations because everyone says that they're close....i don't care if you are or not....just shove it.) afterwards, i would just fume at it secretly by yelling at the bathroom mirrors when i'm in the shower or cursing the perpretrator while burning pictures of him/her (if there isn't any, trust me i will make some). i remember this one time when my number was given away by "suzi" (as i shall call her...i could say him, but we'll just keep it as her), although it was for "legitimate reasons", i burnt all the leaves in the yard while envisioning "suzi". of course, those "legitimate reasons" being for a school club's contact purposes.

i suppose i have a temper. but it's not so bad as it seems. i'm a pretty calm person. i rarely yell. and i hate loud noises or sudden movements. i merely try to take out my anger in a different method. besides, it prevents me from saying some stupid impulsive things. and i have some crude comments to those i'm annoyed at, to put it lightly. fortunately, experience has taught me that it's not so bright to say what you feel upfront. especially when it comes back to you and you need a favour. worse, i have a tendency to forget about the previous incidents in matters of family politics. but i can't do anything about it since it has passed. i suppose i'll eventually have to let it go.

take note though, i rarely hold grudges. i would say never, but in case i do, i would be going against my own word. grudges aren't for me. no one's worth the effort just quite yet. when it comes along, i'll be sure to tell you. what matters most right now for me is the moment. there is no going back.

on a brighter note, there are people that do ask me directly. the other day i also bumped into another friend downtown. he understood the value of asking the person directly for their personal info. although he could have asked for my phone number off of his sister, he was kind enough to ask me directly. for that, i appreciate it and i think my respect for him has risen a little. i'm not too sure right now since i'm busy fuming over how so-and-so got my number from mr. dickhead, who had gotten it from another dildo. in this light, he just seems like the perfect contrast. there isn't many people that actually ask me directly for my info.

however, i do accept exceptions. i don't mind it when you do ask another person for my info if you have asked me beforehand. like matt today, he had asked me for my new msn address. since i was getting off the bus, he suggested that he get it off of another friend of mine. that, i am alright with.

enough ranting. i never thought i would write this much. need to work tomorrow, so nite.

| lily* || 0 || 11:21 p.m. |

Thursday, July 15, 2004

silence of harra

since i have nothing better to do and i really don't want to go to sleep just yet--although my conscience, mind or something is nagging at me due to the fact that i have to go to work tomorrow morning (work sucks)--i decided to go see mr. silence of harra's site. and when i did check out his "life lyrics", i nearly cried. i couldn't read it! it was all in arabic, or what i figure to be arabic. how? how can i find about this silence of harra if i can't read what he writes?

well, i really shouldn't stress myself over this too much. i don't think it matters that much. it was only a matter of curiosity. and possibly a time filler. i wanted to know why his hometown was filled with smoke. think about it. image a place filled with smoke. all that carbon monoxide! everyone's lungs would be black! aside from my semi-sarcastic tone, the situation is quite tragic (so to speak). it is in times like these that canadians should be grateful of the vast "natural resources" we possess. but i wonder how long we will possess it. the closest thing to it that i have here in toronto is some lousy parks. i think i miss my old hometown sometimes. yawn. who cares? time for bed. perhaps mr. silence of harra will reply.

| lily* || 0 || 11:45 p.m. |

"injustice"

went to art gallery yesterday. saw this scary lady on the ttc on the way there. no good looking guys. (which means that there isn't much to write about) and i forgot to ask the guy with the limo for a ride. i should have, but i forgot and it was all sadia's fault! she forgot to remind me.

but on another note, i'm linked up on sadia's blog site! teehehe! i wonder how long i'll keep this blog up. i'm surprised that it still exists!

and as for the injustice relating to spiderman/batman, you're right. i suppose when batman died, he had to leave all the dirty work for spiderman. how could spiderman explain to the public that batman--once his very idol--robbed banks to sustain his "fortune"? this, of course, was additional to robin's confession that batman molested him. oh! there's just so much more! how could anyone bear to hear this? (only sadia....lol)

| lily* || 0 || 11:24 p.m. |

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

cherries

next door, they have a cherry trees. full of cherries. millions of cherries. unpicked by human hands. pure. like a virgin crying out to be free of its torture. so cliche, but it was a truly pitisome sight.

i decided that i would be the one (like neo) to free the cherry tree. especially after being molested from the wind that "caresses it ever so gently". and the sky isn't very helpful. given a small lecture every now and then and it cries. grow up. it's shameful. it's almost like those moronic guys who constantly think about how they'll die a virgin while others are getting fucked.

so, i climbed over the fence with the grateful help of a ladder on top of a small chair (kids: trust me, do not try at home). after a few minor complications (i fell a couple of times and i was reminded once again that i am just too short), i plucked the fruit. such great glorious fruit. so very soft and ripe. and red, too. like blood. yummy. i grabbed as many as i could while choking down as many cherries as i could. until my mother caught me and started bitching. the cherries probably had germs and i probably looked like a fool, but i didn't care. i ran. i ran with the cherries in my arms and cherry juice all over me. worse, i was wet from an evil broken hose while watering the grass and i had mud over me because i had slipped while watering. oh well. at least, the cherry tree is now freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

| lily* || 0 || 7:52 p.m. |

Monday, July 12, 2004

spiderman rules (batman smells)

i'm back.

spiderman rules. i don't care what you say. spiderman is a classic on its own. batman is dead and will never come back. yes, the death was tragic but it has passed. let us enter a new era of youth and beauty where spiderman saves the new york!

pretty hate machine says: batman will prevail [such false hope that this girl places upon herself]
lily** says: *Spiderman spins a web*
pretty hate machine says: batman tears out the web
lily** says: *batman drops dead and into the toilet*
lily** says: too late!
pretty hate machine says: batman stands up
lily** says: *FLUSH* [batman twirls in the toilet and down the drain ]

| lily* || 0 || 11:51 p.m. |

my first blog

this is my first blog. i can't really say that i know what i'm doing. so, instead, i'll just go with flow. hi. how are you? i'm good too. time's up. work done.

okay, i think that's enough for today. much work accomplished. see you tomorrow.

| lily* || 0 || 11:44 p.m. |