Wednesday, September 29, 2004
nicotine
lately, i've had these cravings. cravings for nicotine. a cigarette. any cigarette. malboro, or whatever that's out there--i don't care. i just want a cigarette.
actually, i suppose, it's been a little more than lately. for a couple of months now.
i've held back for now. haven't bought one yet. i can easily get one if i truly wanted it. buy one from the corner store, get it off of a friend, or just take one from a relative.
i've tried smoking before. can't say i like it too much. i can't find anything appealing about it and yet, i am addicted to it before i actually am.
perhaps maybe life's been just shitty lately and that's why i want a cigarette. yawn. everyone's life is shitty.
fuck, i need a cigarette.
| lily* || 2 || 9:57 p.m. |
thanks for the support.
have you tried zyban? expensive stuff to help you quit, but it's quite successful.
when you wake up the next morning for the first time not smoking (after taking the zyban), you feel great. mainly because of the antidepressant in there, but it works. or so i hear from many of the customers. (i work at a pharmacy.)
i think my dad tried zyban and he's quit since (many years now).
of course, there is the traditional cold turkey.
lol. here i am trying to help you quit, while kicking myself for wanting one.
well, at least you can say that you aren't a quitter.
