Tuesday, September 14, 2004
school
due to the fact that i have already graduated, i have found it rather annoying when others question why i have chosen to remain in school.
well, here's the fucking pissing answer:
i like school. i actually do. i am one of the few (or perhaps many who may be in denial) people that enjoy school. i enjoy learning. i may not always like it, but like i had said, i enjoy learning. some bits and pieces of knowledge fascinates me. i don't care if it's that rhinos are natural fire stoppers or that y = ax + b. i don't care how useless it may be. somehow, it manages to intrigue me.
another significant factor is family. in particular, my parents, who are ever so willing to see a "successful" child. of course, a "successful" child would be some sort of corporate accountant making millions of dollars, or some lousy cheapass lawyer ripping off seniors. perhaps, i'm exaggerating a bit--okay, i am. thus, i'm taking a dozen math courses and accounting to create the illusion that i am heading somewhere towards "success".
sadly, i don't give two shits about it. there's a difference between being good at something and enjoying what one does. i'm fairly decent at computers, but i hate it. just flipping through my math textbook makes me sleepy. science would be alright if it weren't for physics.
history, on the other hand, is my thing. always changing and ever occuring. people are developing (or are they? please refer to for an example: "
CultureJammers: Stop Bush http://adbusters.org/magazine/54/features/stopbush.html) there is always something more than what appears to be. moreover, it is ever so interconnected with every possible subject there could be. (much more than those crappy bell commercials albeit i'm not sure if they still have them on tv since i don't watch much television).
fuck math. and the corporate world. i wanna be a bum. i love history.
| lily* || 2 || 7:47 p.m. |
Hey, I totally understand.
My tragic little parents wanted nothing more for me than to be a "success", which of course meant being some kind of suburban zombie professional making bucko bucks.
Fuck that. Fuck math, and fuck the corporate world! -- just like you said! (Though, to be honest, I do like math and use it almost every day. But I've always abhored the corporate world, and always will!)
I've never stopped learning, and have always tried to be authentic. It is possible to make it in this world doing what you love. If your calling is to be history-loving bum, go for it!
thank you. it's always nice to hear people who share similar views. although, i must admit, i am slightly embarassed for this was a mad rant during a crazy moment of "the whole world is against me".
cheers to all who rejects corporate takeovers!
Inspector Lohmann, at
1:44 a.m.
